It's the night before the end of Homestuck
There are other things going on in my life right now, but that's the one singing note of tension that keeps coming back to me. I'm planning to wear a Homestuck shirt tomorrow to campus, and drop everything to look at the finale as soon as I can.
Homestuck, obviously, has been important to me. It won't stop being a fandom when it's over, but the impetus for obsessive reflection about what it means to me will be gone - we'll have the end to talk about, after all.
Homestuck was the first fandom I really got into - I'd read fanfic other places, sort of desultorily because it was free and more about characters I liked. But Homestuck let me reach out and make friendships and talk to people about stories and their nature pretty much as things happened. It was the first really immersive fan experience I'd had, and the first fanfic
I wrote. The experience of being in fandom has been a massive and transformative thing for me, letting me connect with a whole bunch of talented, kind new friends.
And fandom has a really interesting relationship with Homestuck - the narrative was originally driven by fan prompts, fans have been involved with art and music and merchandise, and it changed some of how fandom is done
. It's been kind of a wild ride
Part of the reason it grabbed me so much was that it opened the door to talking about stories with more people in different ways - and to talking about the specifics we look for and the shapes they can take with no interest at all paid to originality, because this was after all transformative works. And one of the conversations that came up around Homestuck, and came up repeatedly, was at the core of Homestuck itself: the ways in which we reach out and connect.
The interpersonal narratives in Homestuck are, at almost every level, about knowing that you are not alone. They myriad ways that's expressed are a gift in and of itself. And for something that starts with a bunch of isolated kids, it's a gift seeing them all gain strength from that connection.
It reminds me of what I love about Person of Interest: a repeated refrain of "in the end you're all alone and no one's coming to save you," with the characters then proving over and over with their actions that someone indeed will come to save them. For those characters, the emotional growth is in unlearning their isolation and slowly growing to trust each other, but they're adults and more jaded and it's a slower process.
In Homestuck, the kids don't have quite as engrained in them the idea that they're alone, and there's more joy and hope in their learning, and less of a focus on their unlearning. One of the reasons that the fandom is so obsessed with Homestuck is that the very nature of fandom, and particularly Homestuck fandom, means that those people who are caught up in the culture around Homestuck also
get to reach out and feel that they are not alone.
Homestuck has brought people together in remarkable ways, and I'm not quite ready for it to be over.